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thoughts_wanderSunday May 7, 2023 1:29pm
It’s a BEAUTIFUL day in the neighborhood here in The Ville!! I’m so excited for the warmer-sunny days!! the weather man says we shouldn’t be getting anymore snow, which is definite plus! I need to work on getting the summer items out of the shed and on to the decks and in the yard. I especially need to get the patio umbrellas out and put up. I am planning on moving the table and 2 chairs to the back deck because I love to have my breakfast outside in the mornings. I will put the 2 wicker chairs and side table on the front deck where the table was. I’ll be leaving the wicker couch on the back deck along with the wicker coffee table. I plan to spend a lot of time on my back deck this summer. I didn't send too much time out there last summer because my mom is always out there, smoking like a stack and listening to her church pod casts and all her other shit that I cant stand to hear. I’ll invest in a good pair of ear buds and not let her in me off like she usually does! It’s MY deck and I WILL enjoy it!!
This is my current view…I decided to come outside and enjoy the wet hare while I write! That’s another thing that I enjoy doing. My mom had been sitting on the couch, so I kicked her off because my big butt doesn’t fit in the wicker chairs (yet). The sun feels amazing!! And YES!! I am a sun worshiper!!
Saima is still not talking to me. And she isn’t allowing Avaya to talk to me either. She has blocked me on Avaya’s facebook kids messenger. I keep sending messages, and plan to screen shot them so that some day, when Avaya asks, I can show them to her so she knows that Grammie didn't stop trying. It breaks my heart that my daughter can be so heartless and unforgiving, even though, I don't feel like I am in need of forgiveness.
I have talked to my counselor, Hannah, about it…and she doesn’t understand why Saima is so mad at me about what happened. I told her that I don't understand either. I suggested that she cant blame Avaya or Emma, because that would make her a bad person, so she has to blame me. Hannah said thats possible.
Paige is home from Wisconsin. I picked her up from the airport Wednesday night. It’s good to have her home again! I do really miss her when he’s gone for weeks at a time like that. She said she wants to talk to me about going there for the summer, and getting a job there. I’m not sure howI feel about it, but the bottom line is that she is an adult and can make her own decisions. To me, there are too many issues with her doing that; she doesn’t have her drivers license, she doesn’t have a car, she would be reliant on her girlfriend and her 2 other friends to get her every where she wanted to go. I just think it would be a huge mistake. I feel that she needs to work on getting her license, get a job and save to buy a car and then start college. Once she gets her 2 yr degree, then she can move to Wisconsin if she still wants to.
To be honest, I have considered moving to Wisconsin myself. Housing is cheaper over there, and I have read that their benefits for seniors and low income folks is way higher than here in Michigan. My biggest reason for staying is that my kids and grandkids are here in Michigan. But, now with Saima not talking to me…I have her and Robbie that don't spend time with me, leaving only Dustin and his family and Brandon and his family that will spend time with me…and that isn’t often at all. It all really does hurt, a lot!!
Nothing else new here…my toe is healing, slowly. the bruise has gotten smaller but not by much. It doesn’t hurt too much anymore, which is great!!
I’m planning to grill some chicken this evening for dinner-YUM!! I didn't do too much grilling during the winter months like I typically do; the colder weather was hard on me this past year. But, its the perfect weather today!!
Y’all have a great week!!
This is Life…As My Thoughts Wander
Lisa M~
It’s a BEAUTIFUL day in the neighborhood here in The Ville!! I’m so excited for the warmer-sunny days!! the weather man says we shouldn’t be getting anymore snow, which is definite plus! I need to work on getting the summer items out of the shed and on to the decks and in the yard. I especially need to get the patio umbrellas out and put up. I am planning on moving the table and 2 chairs to the back deck because I love to have my breakfast outside in the mornings. I will put the 2 wicker chairs and side table on the front deck where the table was. I’ll be leaving the wicker couch on the back deck along with the wicker coffee table. I plan to spend a lot of time on my back deck this summer. I didn't send too much time out there last summer because my mom is always out there, smoking like a stack and listening to her church pod casts and all her other shit that I cant stand to hear. I’ll invest in a good pair of ear buds and not let her in me off like she usually does! It’s MY deck and I WILL enjoy it!!
This is my current view…I decided to come outside and enjoy the wet hare while I write! That’s another thing that I enjoy doing. My mom had been sitting on the couch, so I kicked her off because my big butt doesn’t fit in the wicker chairs (yet). The sun feels amazing!! And YES!! I am a sun worshiper!!
Saima is still not talking to me. And she isn’t allowing Avaya to talk to me either. She has blocked me on Avaya’s facebook kids messenger. I keep sending messages, and plan to screen shot them so that some day, when Avaya asks, I can show them to her so she knows that Grammie didn't stop trying. It breaks my heart that my daughter can be so heartless and unforgiving, even though, I don't feel like I am in need of forgiveness.
I have talked to my counselor, Hannah, about it…and she doesn’t understand why Saima is so mad at me about what happened. I told her that I don't understand either. I suggested that she cant blame Avaya or Emma, because that would make her a bad person, so she has to blame me. Hannah said thats possible.
Paige is home from Wisconsin. I picked her up from the airport Wednesday night. It’s good to have her home again! I do really miss her when he’s gone for weeks at a time like that. She said she wants to talk to me about going there for the summer, and getting a job there. I’m not sure howI feel about it, but the bottom line is that she is an adult and can make her own decisions. To me, there are too many issues with her doing that; she doesn’t have her drivers license, she doesn’t have a car, she would be reliant on her girlfriend and her 2 other friends to get her every where she wanted to go. I just think it would be a huge mistake. I feel that she needs to work on getting her license, get a job and save to buy a car and then start college. Once she gets her 2 yr degree, then she can move to Wisconsin if she still wants to.
To be honest, I have considered moving to Wisconsin myself. Housing is cheaper over there, and I have read that their benefits for seniors and low income folks is way higher than here in Michigan. My biggest reason for staying is that my kids and grandkids are here in Michigan. But, now with Saima not talking to me…I have her and Robbie that don't spend time with me, leaving only Dustin and his family and Brandon and his family that will spend time with me…and that isn’t often at all. It all really does hurt, a lot!!
Nothing else new here…my toe is healing, slowly. the bruise has gotten smaller but not by much. It doesn’t hurt too much anymore, which is great!!
I’m planning to grill some chicken this evening for dinner-YUM!! I didn't do too much grilling during the winter months like I typically do; the colder weather was hard on me this past year. But, its the perfect weather today!!
Y’all have a great week!!
This is Life…As My Thoughts Wander
Lisa M~
